I'm actually sort of mad today, but it's one of those things where I'm just naturally depressed or whatever so I'm "making up reasons" to be mad... but I have the nerve to walk around with a smile on my face, though. Ooh, the deception

There's something you need to know, but I just don't know how to tell you...

Guess I'm just not as desperate as I thought

I was just thinking of that today in lunch. I hate it when people around me are really happy, and they're just like, "You look mad" or "You're so quiet"... this is to them:

First of all, to those of you who think I look mad or whatever, just assume I am mad but it has nothing to do with you and stay out of my business. Ever notice how people can totally ignore you when you're happy or just in a normal mood, but when you're mad, it's as if they never leave you alone!!? Yah, so leave me alone when I'm mad... if I'm crying, I don't care if you come over or whatever, but until then, leave me the hell alone. Chances are, I won't be crying though...

Now on to the peole who ask me why I'm so quiet... you guys are the worst! First, I immediately get offended because I think they're saying that I'm always talking and now I'm quiet. Then, they won't leave me alone about being quiet, and sorry but sometimes I just don't feel like talking. I know, it seems highly abnormal and everything, but get used to it because there are alot of days where I'm just not talking and I've gone whole class periods without talking too. I know it seems like alot to you, and that's probably because you're always talking or whatever, but remember this... I'm not sure if you knew this or anything, but... uuh.. I'M NOT YOU.

That's all for now. And oh yah... nobody is getting off easy because its' not just that I;m depressed or whatever, i'm not depressed I'm just pissed off for whatever reason, and yes it is because of something (or someethings) that someone (or someones) said. I'm not naming any names, though because I don't want anyone's feelings to get hurt or anything.

Bye-o, loverlies. <3<3 Much Love, Leesha

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